Patrick Whitfill

poetry

Patrick Whitfill has work appearing in Boston Review, the Pushcart Prize, Southern Review, The Threepenny Review, and many other journals. He lives and teaches in South Carolina.

 

Pericarditis

I guess I believe it all, these new home owners uploading surprise excavation videos of hidden basements, water wells, stairs leading us into subscribing for part two. Like god reveals itself, at least to some degree, within every renovation process. It’s like when art conservators pop some priceless painting out of its frame so they can punch up the yellow of an angel’s chin, only to realize underneath the canvas lies another, better person. Or how, when they x-ray your heart, they can’t say why the inflammation starts, just that it’s there. Imagine it, though, doctors digging inside your chest, finding some ancient ruin, some impossibly cavernous, outdated space stuffed with gold doubloons, lost texts elucidating what it means to die in the dark and wake up centuries later, famished, but maybe healed.

My wife collapsed during a summer beach trip with our kids. When the EMS arrived, I gave our children popsicles to keep them calm. We stayed in the hospital for a few days, and the episodes continued for another year. Nobody could tell her why it happened, but they kept suggesting a heart condition, almost casually, like how a homeowner might point to a soft spot in the foundation and say that it could be a sinkhole, or a forgotten staircase, or something else entirely.