Grace

Poetry

Grace is a settler living in Ontario on the traditional and Treaty territory of the Anishinabek people, now known as the Chippewa Tri-Council, comprised of the Beausoleil, Rama, and Georgina Island First Nations. Her debut collection of poetry, The Language We Were Never Taught to Speak, is published by Guernica Editions and a Lambda Award finalist. Her work can be found in Grain Magazine, Contemporary Verse 2, Arc Poetry, and elsewhere.

 

New Year

Like all beginnings, it held hope in a tight fist: This is the year you’ll do that thing. So I say goodbye to the plants we couldn’t keep alive, each dried up promise to do the dishes, take out the garbage, sweep the dust and hair. My hair is leaving me by the hundreds each day. It’s not me; it’s science. We lose almost enough hair each year to make a full wig. I am lucky my biggest inconvenience is my hair growing scientifically weary of me. I tell myself it is just another day to pet my dog, wake up next to the one I love. A new day to reconvene with my body, finally have time to say good morning to every unseen speck of dust. I wind my watch. It has seen sixty-three New Years. Which is to say it knows every minute for what it is: A kindness.

This poem was written near the beginning of when COVID-19 first hit. It was a very different time, and I think I had a lot more optimism back then. I've been re-reading it at the beginning of every new year since, to remind me of that feeling of possibility and hope.