Amy Collini
Definitions

Amy Collini - Definitions

Creative Nonfiction
Amy Collini’s essays have appeared or are forthcoming in Slice, Indiana Review, Soundings Review, Pithead Chapel, Rappahannock Review, Ilanot Review,… Read more »
Rachel Jamison Webster
Relating to Time

Rachel Jamison Webster - Relating to Time

Creative Nonfiction
Rachel Jamison Webster is a Professor of Poetry at Northwestern University and author of the full-length collections of poetry, September… Read more »

Relating to Time

Rachel Jamison Webster

Shortly after I turned thirty, I took a trip to Costa Rica that forced me to reconsider my sense of time. Escape from a daily schedule, immersion in nature, and appearance of my first gray hairs all conspired to create one of those drops into groundlessness that most people I know experience—a kind of newness, or cluelessness, we feel first in the terror of puberty then encounter again and again as we revise our lives.

In my twenties, I had become more comfortable with my own strength, and like many of us, had learned to embrace contradictions. I was a yogi in high heels, a feminist in pressed powder, an organic vegetarian shopping at Target, a seeker pursuing a singular journey even as I deepened my commitments to others. And the reading material I brought on our trip reflected these opposing energies. I had a novel, The Time Traveler’s Wife, a book of feminist theory by Mary Daley called Pure Lust, and the new issue of Vogue.

I opened the magazine first, and quickly consumed glossy spreads of gowns and handbags before circling back to read the articles. Some that I would have skipped over only months ago, I… Read more »